It's not easy being a working mom. It seems there are never enough hours in my day and my mind is constantly thinking about what I need to do next. I know all moms, not just working moms, feel that way. It's hard work being a mom... and that's an understatement!
It's always hard to drop my son Jude off and go to work, but some days are worse than others. Today was one of the not so great days. Usually when I drop Jude off, it's so early, that he sleeps all the way to my aunt's (that's who watches him most days) and is asleep when I kiss him goodbye. Lately, Jude has been waking up when my husband and I take him out of his crib and put him into his car seat and then staying awake for the whole trip to my aunt's. Then when I have to say goodbye, he is awake and smiling and ready to play and I'm walking out the door. He's so much fun in the morning. He's cuddly and smiley and he's just kind of laid back. Mornings with Jude are the best! That's part of what makes leaving him so hard.
This morning he was awake when we got to my aunt's house, so I pulled him out of his seat, gave him a big hug and a kiss and handed him to my uncle. My uncle said, "Let's go say bye-bye to Mommy," and took Jude to the window so that he could watch me walk to my car. I stopped and waved and Jude smiled. As I walked to my car and drove away I was really trying hard not to cry. It was a difficult start to my day.
I love my job and love being in the newsroom, so I can't imagine how hard it would be to leave Jude if I was going somewhere that I hated. Having a good job and having family caring for my baby makes going to work easier, but it's never easy to say "bye-bye" to Jude. I'm sure when he gets to the stage where he has a better understanding of what's going on, it will be even harder. Being a working mom presents its share of challenges, but I'm always up for a challenge. So here's hoping for more good days than bad!